[ There's a sick stab of guilt that she continues to consider simply killing Solas, even as she tells him this. It feels disingenuous. But she has to think of their world, not just one person.
[ When he does come over, she'll be waiting for him to bring him into the living room and to the fire. If he allows, she'll tug him down to sit on the couch, will fix him whatever drink he wants...
...and then Neria will take up residence behind him, letting him lean back against her. She places her arms around his shoulders and simply lets the both of them rest like that, if he'll allow her, even if only for a short time. ]
[ Her hold is gentle, fingers finding the places in his shoulders to work carefully at the tension in his muscles. Neria sighs, leaning just slightly against him. ]
I'm sorry for bringing up things that remind you of the past.
[ How many things did she regret in her life? How many things has she ruined? If she could have the singular chance to go back and change even one of those moments--
But she can't. All she can do is try to move forward. ]
The weight sits on your chest and weighs you down. But Solas, you're going to burn yourself alive just to allow others to breathe. That can't be the only solution.
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I can show you simplistic things from my time, things you may be able to do, even without the presence of the Fade.
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But more seriously, it takes her a few minutes to respond. ]
When you go through with your plan, Solas, what will happen to you?
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It is not important what happens to me.
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[ There's a sick stab of guilt that she continues to consider simply killing Solas, even as she tells him this. It feels disingenuous. But she has to think of their world, not just one person.
...Right? ]
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It is no matter. It is a gloomy subject, and one I should not have turned the conversation towards. My apologies.
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Come over, Solas.
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Alright.
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...and then Neria will take up residence behind him, letting him lean back against her. She places her arms around his shoulders and simply lets the both of them rest like that, if he'll allow her, even if only for a short time. ]
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But, he settles against her, letting her slowly lull him into a calm, into something he never would have thought would come from their conversation. )
Thank you.
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[ Her hold is gentle, fingers finding the places in his shoulders to work carefully at the tension in his muscles. Neria sighs, leaning just slightly against him. ]
I'm sorry for bringing up things that remind you of the past.
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( He relaxes into the touch, a little more open to it after their agreements, and how they're learning each other in this place. )
Do not worry about it. I am happy to speak of the past, but it is what I have also ruined with my own hands. I cannot help but be melancholy.
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[ How many things did she regret in her life? How many things has she ruined? If she could have the singular chance to go back and change even one of those moments--
But she can't. All she can do is try to move forward. ]
The weight sits on your chest and weighs you down. But Solas, you're going to burn yourself alive just to allow others to breathe. That can't be the only solution.